Every day is a medical day now I guess, but yesterday was especially medical. I finally got rejuvenated and remotivated to work hard and do well for PA school. I remembered why I'm doing what I'm doing. I remembered why I love it so much.
I had work, at the health center, same as usual. But then I had volunteering at the clinic, and that was sweet. I mean it was busy which means we ran late, but oh well. I got to translate for a doctor because there were no female translators present, and he had to look at this lady's rear. She was 8 months pregnant and had hemorrhoids! He said that that's fairly common for pregnant ladies. Interesting! I love hearing about diagnoses and such. It rekindled the fire within. And then Jarom was raving about a cyst that was hidden behind a wart that a different doctor removed. And I realized how nerdy we all were, all the pre-med kids crowding around a doctor to see a really huge cyst. Haha. It was touching.
And then I went to an O Chem study group with a few girls and somehow through the conversation they found out that I work at the health center drawing blood and also volunteer doing it. They asked how many credits I was taking, if I had to pay for schooling all by myself, and I said yes and they were just so amazed! They thought I was so cool for being so busy and taking care of myself and doing all these things to get ready for PA school. (One is pre-nursing, one is pre-PA) And I remembered what it was like, being so young, and looking at the older seniors and being like wowwww I don't even know how I'm going to get there like them. And now I am that senior. I'm the one to look up to! I'm the one doing the PA shadowing, doing the internships, getting the clinical hours, all that stuff. And it made me feel good. I feel like I'm finally accomplishing something with my life.
Life is just so crazy. There is so much going on ALL THE TIME. And it never gets any easier it just changes. Different problems, different stresses. It's so overwhelming. But days like yesterday remind me of why I'm doing it all and that it doesn't have to be just check list things, but things I really enjoy. And I can enjoy them while I'm doing them! So let's do that.
Friday, October 9, 2009
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
book club notes-- the pleasure of my company by Steve Martin
I found these while cleaning up my gmail today. They're from my family's book club, notes I took while we were reading Ted's choice of the above titled book.
When he says that the event under the pecan tree would either resurrect him or kill him, that's so true of so many things in our lives. It's all about how we look at things, our attitude. Things can either break us down or buoy us up, motivate us to do things. Usually tragic events. hard events. But they're either super awesome or super crazy. So interesting! It's all about our attitudes and what we take away from things. It shows how much control we have over the events in our lives. How much control we have over our lives in general.
It takes the hard things to make us better. If they're not hard, they won't make us better.
You can't categorize relationships. He indulges himself with a magic square at the end, an old habit, but he says that it overflows with people and the confusion pleased him. And relationships are just... unpredictable. People are crazy and do things you don't understand, can't understand... hm. Relationships aren't categorizable.
When he says that the event under the pecan tree would either resurrect him or kill him, that's so true of so many things in our lives. It's all about how we look at things, our attitude. Things can either break us down or buoy us up, motivate us to do things. Usually tragic events. hard events. But they're either super awesome or super crazy. So interesting! It's all about our attitudes and what we take away from things. It shows how much control we have over the events in our lives. How much control we have over our lives in general.
It takes the hard things to make us better. If they're not hard, they won't make us better.
You can't categorize relationships. He indulges himself with a magic square at the end, an old habit, but he says that it overflows with people and the confusion pleased him. And relationships are just... unpredictable. People are crazy and do things you don't understand, can't understand... hm. Relationships aren't categorizable.
Monday, October 5, 2009
it's been an interesting and enlightening weekend
I've figured out a lot of things about myself that I need to change. One huge thing is to stop caring what other people think about me. I've got such a golden retriever personality--I want to be liked by everyone. I stress about it and get nervous about it when there are really people I want to impress. But I need to realize that it doesn't matter what they think about it. I'll do what I do because I am that way, and they can either think I'm being fake about it, or not. They can accept me, or not. But regardless of what they do, I can still be happy about myself and can still be myself around them, around everyone. I can only control how I feel and how I act. I can't control how anybody else feels about me. So I might as well not worry about it. I shouldn't. I can't. Not if I want to stay sane. And happy.
It's interesting how different people's families are. How people raise their children way differently than everybody else. So so so differently. And you don't necessarily see it from that single person, but when you see their family you're like oh, wow, that's way different from my family. And not necessarily in a bad way. But wow can it be different.
I talked with my coworker today about dealing with other people's families and she enlightened me. It was a very therapeutic session. I'm glad people go through the same things as I do. And they have triumphed! So I can too. It's not me. It's not my fault. I can only do the best I can, and the rest is up to them.
I'm starting to feel it...
As far as the weekend went, Becky and I finally got to do a photoshoot!! She showed me one of the pictures and holy cow am I in love with it. (Check my facebook) She's amazing!!! Check out her blog (Boo Boo Photos on the right as a link) to see her work. She's so good!!! I'm so excited to see the rest of them!
I need a couple hours for some self-reflection time I think... but I never have any time.
It's interesting how different people's families are. How people raise their children way differently than everybody else. So so so differently. And you don't necessarily see it from that single person, but when you see their family you're like oh, wow, that's way different from my family. And not necessarily in a bad way. But wow can it be different.
I talked with my coworker today about dealing with other people's families and she enlightened me. It was a very therapeutic session. I'm glad people go through the same things as I do. And they have triumphed! So I can too. It's not me. It's not my fault. I can only do the best I can, and the rest is up to them.
I'm starting to feel it...
As far as the weekend went, Becky and I finally got to do a photoshoot!! She showed me one of the pictures and holy cow am I in love with it. (Check my facebook) She's amazing!!! Check out her blog (Boo Boo Photos on the right as a link) to see her work. She's so good!!! I'm so excited to see the rest of them!
I need a couple hours for some self-reflection time I think... but I never have any time.
Sunday, September 13, 2009
perfect day
This is an older post from awhile ago.
Yesterday was awesome. I slept in till noon (hey! I deserve it! I wake up early every day now..), went running, hung out with Nicki (she got me an AWESOME thermos mug that is exactly ME), went OUTDOOR CLIMBING for the FIRST time with Austin and Landon, then India Fest (which I've wanted to go to since freshmen year), YoZone deliciousness afterwards, and topped the night off with Seinfeld.
Climbing was so fun! I was way super nervous beforehand... because I didn't want to die and I didn't want to look like an idiot. I didn't really know what I was getting myself into. So we went up to Provo Canyon (Rock Canyon? Are they the same thing? I don't know) and hiked up about 20 minutes, then started. The first climb I did was super hard.. it was crazy, at one point I fell off and swung around the face of the rock, which was kinda scary. But I finished it! Then we climbed up a little bit and Landon and Goff climbed this way harder one.. it was fun, we were pretty high up to start with and just hanging on this cliff. Crazy. Then I climbed a few more easy ones-- one was really fun because it had this huge crack that you just shoved your hands into to climb up. All in all it was amazing! It was beautiful outside, climbing was way fun, it really is more fun than a gym... because you're climbing an actual side of a mountain! I hope I get to go tons more!!
Then we went to IndiaFest in Spanish Fork. I've heard about it since my freshman year here, but never got to go. Finally I did! It was pretty fun, there was dancing inside the temple and things for sale and there were llamas outside (which I got super excited about) and we watched a movie/play thing then afterwards which was hilarious and silly and then they lit this huge thing on fire! It was part of the story. Just enjoy the pictures. It was intense.
All in all, a good day I would say.
Yesterday was awesome. I slept in till noon (hey! I deserve it! I wake up early every day now..), went running, hung out with Nicki (she got me an AWESOME thermos mug that is exactly ME), went OUTDOOR CLIMBING for the FIRST time with Austin and Landon, then India Fest (which I've wanted to go to since freshmen year), YoZone deliciousness afterwards, and topped the night off with Seinfeld.
Climbing was so fun! I was way super nervous beforehand... because I didn't want to die and I didn't want to look like an idiot. I didn't really know what I was getting myself into. So we went up to Provo Canyon (Rock Canyon? Are they the same thing? I don't know) and hiked up about 20 minutes, then started. The first climb I did was super hard.. it was crazy, at one point I fell off and swung around the face of the rock, which was kinda scary. But I finished it! Then we climbed up a little bit and Landon and Goff climbed this way harder one.. it was fun, we were pretty high up to start with and just hanging on this cliff. Crazy. Then I climbed a few more easy ones-- one was really fun because it had this huge crack that you just shoved your hands into to climb up. All in all it was amazing! It was beautiful outside, climbing was way fun, it really is more fun than a gym... because you're climbing an actual side of a mountain! I hope I get to go tons more!!
Then we went to IndiaFest in Spanish Fork. I've heard about it since my freshman year here, but never got to go. Finally I did! It was pretty fun, there was dancing inside the temple and things for sale and there were llamas outside (which I got super excited about) and we watched a movie/play thing then afterwards which was hilarious and silly and then they lit this huge thing on fire! It was part of the story. Just enjoy the pictures. It was intense.
All in all, a good day I would say.
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
new job. balloons. parking.
My new job is going great! I haven't missed a single draw yet. It's so awesome getting to draw a bunch of times instead of just the few a week. Today I kept overshooting (having to pull back the needle to get the blood going) but at least I never missed.. haha. Good times! And everyone's so nice and I got balloons as a welcoming gift and it's just awesome.
What sucks though is that parking around my apt sucks, I wasn't lucky enough to get a parking pass for the complex, so I don't know what I'm going to do... I might have to just walk to school from the health center then drive home after school when hopefully parking is a bit more freed up. We'll see?
Remember when in middle school and high school sorta, people got their friends balloons on their birthdays and it was like a popularity contest to see how many friends you had? I loved getting the balloons. They're all so pretty and always to celebrate a special occasion so you know something cool happened or whatnot. I love my balloons, even though they deflated pretty quick. Haha.
Off to class and internship and more work! Busy busy busy.
What sucks though is that parking around my apt sucks, I wasn't lucky enough to get a parking pass for the complex, so I don't know what I'm going to do... I might have to just walk to school from the health center then drive home after school when hopefully parking is a bit more freed up. We'll see?
Remember when in middle school and high school sorta, people got their friends balloons on their birthdays and it was like a popularity contest to see how many friends you had? I loved getting the balloons. They're all so pretty and always to celebrate a special occasion so you know something cool happened or whatnot. I love my balloons, even though they deflated pretty quick. Haha.
Off to class and internship and more work! Busy busy busy.
Monday, August 31, 2009
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