it's interesting how other people's major life events make you reflect back on your own life and evaluate what's going on.

what a crappy start to a crappy day to end the crappy week all i want to do is eat and sleep i've been eating so much rice and kimchee lately why does my roommate hate the smell so much i feel so incompetent i'm starting to lose motivation to run my body is breaking down everything hurts i wish i had a running buddy my sleeping habits are back to how they used to be not being able to fall asleep for an hour what happened to being so exhausted i could fall asleep in a second dang i better start doing something running isn't even helping que raro i keep procrastinating calling insurance but my ticket is due in a few weeks i just don't want to be put on hold for forever or talk to strangers i don't have plans for this weekend but i'm so glad just b/c it's the weekend but i hope i get to do fun things but i am dreading running before it starts and then i have to run six tomorrow barf i hope my body doesn't break like last week i miss jason his emails confuse me so ecstatic one week so angry the next i guess he was always a bit dramatic but it doesn't make me worry any less dang it i hope he gets to do a lot of good work instead of slacking with his slacker trainer why do people do the things they do why are people rude mean why are they jerks why are they insensitive it makes me want to be a hermit and be like the kid in the other side of the mountain have a pet peregrine falcon and eat out of turtle shells and such i mean you don't have to deal with the crappiness of people you just chill and live like a jungle woman off on your own how tranquil and how unstressful i mean i guess you could get eaten by a mountain lion but as far as relationships with people phew you are just free as a bird don't have to deal with trying to figure people out or figure yourself out or figure how to deal with jerks and insensitive poo faces you know it's just exhausting sometimes and i get sick of it dang i gotta get to class but i want to power nap sometimes five hours of sleep just doesn't do it.

I miss Bolivia.

and that's the way it is

Celine Dion is stuck in my head for some reason.

So on Sunday, spur of the moment (we seem to be doing that a lot lately) we took Sean's offer for two tickets to the Jazz game on Monday! I had never been to an NBA game ever before so I was waaaay excited. Sure, homework would have to be put on hold, but man we are the library's best patrons--there without fail every single night. So I think we deserved a break. :)

HOLY CRAP. IT WAS THE GREATEST GAME EVER! Except for that game against the Cavaliers the other week. But anyways! So we were playing the Phoenix Suns, where Sean, his date, his friend and his date are all from (well, AZ). So they're winning by the half, by 17 freakin points. 17!! They kept making every single 3-pointer they shot and we kept missing all of ours. So Austin and I figure we're toast, slump down in our seats, feel aggravated. BUT THEN. THE GREATEST. COMEBACK. EVER.

It started with 3 times in a row they missed their shots and we made ours-- only down by 11! Then the gap kept on a-closing!! And then we were TIED! And then we were AHEAD! AND THEN WE KEPT GETTING AHEAD!!! It was ridiculously AMAAAAZING!!! WIN FOR THE JAZZ IN THE END!!!!!!

The celebratory confetti after we won!

Yes, I realize how fuzzy this picture is. But I like it anyway. We were there!!

Afterwards, we drove a couple of Austin's friends home to Provo with us (they are hilarious!!) and then hit up Sammy's for a milkshake and fries. Delicious! It was an amazing night. So fun!!! I hope we go to more Jazz games in the future! I am a converted fan! (It helps that the Sonics flew away to OK)

today's happenings--I decided I wanted to keep a meticulous record of even the mundane details of my life.

The Volunteer Care Clinic held a brunch for all its volunteers this morning--the most delicious crepes ever!! I got a ride with Ted and Missy and it was a beautiful, bright, snowy morning. I brunched with doctors and pharmacists... cool. :)

Then I got mad at Austin for awhile about his busted knee and his stubbornness about his body. I don't know why I got so upset... I thought he was just being defiant to me and it worries me to pieces. I don't want him to be broken! I don't want him to get hurt! It scares me. I got over it eventually then went on that excruciatingly painful run. I'm glad my runs this week are only 4 miles or less... until Saturday arrives yet again. Boo. I need to reread Born to Run and get motivated again.

After showering and getting all squeaky clean, Austin and I headed up to the library to study. I didn't do much homework but got some budgeting in. I have my first plasma appointment set for this Saturday and I'm planning on going as often as I can from now on. Desperate times call for desperate measures! I hope nothing bad happens to me because of it.

Then we went to Austin's and he made chicken quesadillas! They were absolutely delicious! He's a good cook and cleaner. :) I'm happy about that. He's so good--if people are ever complaining about their boys I always think of him and am so happy that he doesn't do any of the dumb things other girls complain about. I mean, we all have our faults of course, but he is still pretty dang good. :)

We were lounging around watching TV and talking while waiting for Frog to get home so we could use his all-sports pass for the bball game tonight, but then we realized it was an away game. After laughing at our ignorance we got outta there so Frog could have a good setting for his date. But Caroline was supposedly going to be at my apartment for her date! So we were stranded. Solution: the dollar theatre. We grabbed some white chocolate pretzels (that I made the other day!) and a tangelo for snacks and went to see Fantastic Mr. Fox. It was pretty good, I definitely enjoyed myself, but I wouldn't see it again. On the way we ran into a couple of douche bags who threw a snowball at my window really hard and freaked me out. Austin almost jumped out to beat them up but I was already driving away pretty fast. It's probably a good thing... although that woulda been a sight to see, Austin beating guys up to defend my honor. Or something like that. Haha.

All in all a good day!! Yesterday was good too. Cafe Rio for dinner then redbox movie. Terminator Salvation. It was okay. Lots of movies this weekend. But I kinda liked just being chill and hanging out with Austin. I'm sure next weekend will be adventurous.. apparently ice climbing is on the menu. :)

I ran 6.5 miles today and it killed. My left hip is achy achy and numb and I'm afraid of aggravating it more. How the H am I supposed to more than double this?!!? The half-marathon is starting to look less appealing to me...

Also, now that I'm running almost every day, I'm constantly STARVING. Boo to that.

Tissue bio is scaring the crap out of me. I'm crapless! Hahaha... no but for real. It's the kind of hard that scares you so bad that you don't even want to start. You keep procrastinating the inevitable. Bad idea. But I can't get myself to start! Hundreds of slides to memorize! I don't know how to read slides! Sigh...

Let's think about something happy. Oh, I'm coming home in March. That's happy. :)

boo

i got into work and started making oatmeal (leftover from awesome camping trip #2 (first one was the big group one in july)) and just finished when people came in to get their blood drawn. the first was easy, nice juicy veins. the second was difficult and i missed. and he let me know i missed. i know he didn't mean to make me feel terrible but he did. "looks like you missed!" then when my supervisor came over to draw for me b/c i couldn't feel anything he said it again "she missed the first time." great. thanks, sir. i kind of already knew that.

and of course she got him and probably thinks i'm an idiot b/c she said she felt a really good one where i had poked before. but i swear he got warmed up or something b/c i felt NOTHING there the first time and was just stabbing in the dark, literally. not quite literally. but almost.

boo. not a great start to the day.

two day campout in st. george

It was Thursday night and Austin and I were talking about the weekend and what his friends were doing and how going down to St. George would be so so so fun. Too bad his subie is semi-out-of-commission... after a quick phone call to my dad the next day, we got the OK and took my car down to St. George that night for the weekend!

We got there around 2am, went through some bumpy roads to our campsite, and tried to sleep. Austin succeeded much better than me, ha. His dad let us use their 15 degree sleeping bags which we thought would do the trick but I was freezing! I didn't get very much sleep that night... but it was alright.

The next morning after feasting on apples & cinnamon oatmeal and a banana, we headed off to climb with Landon and Jeff! This is the first climb we did. I finished it! It was so high, over 100 feet... we started where you can see Landon and Austin, and it ends at that little cave crevice up there.
Then we did this second climb--here's Austin climbing it. I love watching him climb. :)
You can't tell from this picture how tall or steep it is.. but it was! It was a really cool climb, lots of different holds. Super hard though. You go along the edge that goes diagonally up and left. I'm surprised I made it up. I almost gave up a couple of times. But I conquered it in the end! And it was a 10a so I'm happy :)
Then after lunch (ramen with veggies and chicken) the boys did another climb while I went exploring then Austin and I went on a run. I'm training for a half-marathon (still picking which one... either in May or June) so we went on a 5-mile run along this path. The scenery was beautiful and the weather was absolutely perfect. First time in a long time that I could just wear shorts and a t-shirt. We ended up going almost 6 miles! It was really good. Austin ran most of it barefoot (because of this book called Born to Run which you all should read--it'll totally change your perspective on running!) and was good enough to run with me even though I'm way way way slower than him. :)

We met up with Landon and Jeff again to go bouldering because I wanted to see what outdoor bouldering was like. I didn't do anything though, I was pooped! But I watched the boys tinker around. Then we headed back towards the city to meet up with Austin's friends who had also gone down to visit another friend in St. George. We ate at In-n-Out together then watched Hot Rod at their friend Petty's house, then went hot tubbing. Way fun!! Finally, we headed back to the mountains to find a campsite for the night. It was FREEZING. And coyotes started howling which freaked me out, and when they started howling again they sounded way closer and it was scary. And cold. So I didn't sleep very well again, haha, but well, we were roughing it. We got up at 6am, picked up Frog, and headed back to P-town for church and made it!

It was quite the trip. So so so fun!!! I'm excited for summer when it's not as cold. I absolutely loved it. What a good weekend!!!

I think I have a sensitive digestive system. When I went home for break and got slammed with Korean food for every meal for 2 weeks, my stomach went psycho! It was not so fun. But after a week I adjusted just fine. But then coming back here, it had to readjust again. But now I'm fine. Que raro!!

First week of school went by pretty good. I'm scared for tissue bio but the rest of my classes seem manageable. I had my first real cooking lab today--made cherry jam tarts! Yum. I don't know how I feel about my lab partners but hopefully I'll learn to love and get over it. I need to get cracking on GRE study though, if I want to take it in early May. School is not as bad as last semester but now I'm piling on GRE and running (training for a half-marathon!) so I'm pretty much just as busy. But way more chill about it (too chill perhaps?). I'm senioritising like crazy and just want to be done. We'll see how things go. :)