what a crappy start to a crappy day to end the crappy week all i want to do is eat and sleep i've been eating so much rice and kimchee lately why does my roommate hate the smell so much i feel so incompetent i'm starting to lose motivation to run my body is breaking down everything hurts i wish i had a running buddy my sleeping habits are back to how they used to be not being able to fall asleep for an hour what happened to being so exhausted i could fall asleep in a second dang i better start doing something running isn't even helping que raro i keep procrastinating calling insurance but my ticket is due in a few weeks i just don't want to be put on hold for forever or talk to strangers i don't have plans for this weekend but i'm so glad just b/c it's the weekend but i hope i get to do fun things but i am dreading running before it starts and then i have to run six tomorrow barf i hope my body doesn't break like last week i miss jason his emails confuse me so ecstatic one week so angry the next i guess he was always a bit dramatic but it doesn't make me worry any less dang it i hope he gets to do a lot of good work instead of slacking with his slacker trainer why do people do the things they do why are people rude mean why are they jerks why are they insensitive it makes me want to be a hermit and be like the kid in the other side of the mountain have a pet peregrine falcon and eat out of turtle shells and such i mean you don't have to deal with the crappiness of people you just chill and live like a jungle woman off on your own how tranquil and how unstressful i mean i guess you could get eaten by a mountain lion but as far as relationships with people phew you are just free as a bird don't have to deal with trying to figure people out or figure yourself out or figure how to deal with jerks and insensitive poo faces you know it's just exhausting sometimes and i get sick of it dang i gotta get to class but i want to power nap sometimes five hours of sleep just doesn't do it.

I miss Bolivia.