urrrrgh

i'm tired of not having time to focus on school. i'm mad at myself for not making time to focus on school. therefore i am also mad at my low quiz grades and feeling really stupid every tuesday and sometimes thursday. i'm sick of 8 hours of tissue bio straight every tuesday (8am to 3pm). i'm mad that my desire to run a half-marathon has also interfered with schoolwork, because training takes so much time. but that doesn't even hurt too much b/c it's WORK that is scheduled during open lab hours. THAT'S what's killing me. i hate having to work while at school!

that is a half-lie because i like my jobs and i like being busy and productive and independent and hard working. but at the same time i just want to screw it and be one of those kids that doesn't have to work during college and can just study and play and have a grand ole time. spoiled punks. the worst part is they don't even realize how good they freaking have it. DON'T EVEN REALIZE!!!

i'm sick of feeling stagnant. i'm sick of not progressing. with anything. it's terrible. things just feel terrible. no, i am not pms-ing. i am just in an angry mood.




so sick so sick of being tired
and oh so tired of being sick